Shine Bright Like a Diamond- you are worth it, you are loved, you are mine!

Let me just be truthful with y’all. These last few weeks have really happened in a whirlwind. Though I’m not sure that I would expect anything less than that when dealing with our family, because we seem to run on hyper-speed compared to others, ha! One thing that has been hard to deal with is, how our eyes have truly been opened to the travesties these children have/are going through. I grieve for them, the innocence they’ve lost, the struggles they face, and the issues they now have to work through, all created by no fault of their own. It’s heartbreaking to even comprehend how things like this even happen. But the reality is they do. And that makes me want to grab them all, hold them tight, cry with them, and bring them into our family. Fortunately we are able to do so for one (right now) and that’s what I keep telling myself when the gut wrenching stories, sad statics, and realness of it all is shown around me. adoption picture Last night, I was reminded of a dream I had a few years ago, one that shook me to my core. Have you ever had a dream that felt so real? Like waking up the next morning was almost an extension of the dream? Or has your dream ever left a lasting impression on your heart? Well the memories of it have come back to me and all day today I have been so broken and almost in tears. Because quite frankly this dream has rocked my world and changed my life. There is just no other way to put it. Though some of the details have faded, here’s what I remember:

I can’t tell you where we were, who all we were with, what the rest of the story is, but I can tell you about the scene engraved in my memory. Sam and I were somewhere in a crowded, public place. There were three children with us who were not our own; but running to us, they were frightened, heartbroken, and desperate. Three sets of eyes crying out to me for help, though by the look on their faces they were certain no help would be found. For the life of me I cannot tell you how these sweet kids came to us, but I know they were trying to escape from something. Running from; their parents (I think) shouting “you aren’t worth it”, strangers staring disgustedly, and other random people telling them there is no hope. Without even thinking I huddled those sweet babies around me, held their dirty, tear stained cheeks in my hand, and told them with all my might…

“YOU ARE WORTH IT!
YOU ARE LOVED!
AND YOU ARE MINE!”

I just kept repeating it over and over until I could see the desperation fade away from their faces. Until they no longer focused on what they were running away from, but what I was telling them. Hugging them tightly I cried for their loss of innocence and prayed I could show them the love they deeply needed. You see it didn’t matter where they came from, but at that moment I wanted them to know that THEY mattered to ME!

And that is all I can remember. But that one scene is haunting, those eyes are calling to me, and I feel like they are waiting for me to find them…rescue them. Even now, as tears roll down my cheeks, I am pleading to the Lord to lead me to those children. Help me rescue them! Because I can’t go another day without them knowing…

“YOU ARE WORTH IT!
YOU ARE LOVED!
AND YOU ARE MINE!”

Lord show me…

My heart longs to get our child to his new home as soon as possible. Each week I count down as we finish yet another training class (only 2 left!), fill out some more paper work, and check off all the necessary boxes standing in our way. But there is still one pretty big box waiting to be checked and that’s our car. We have to be able to have a seat for our son to sit in, whether it be two cars or one BIG (12 passenger van) car. This is no small feat for us friends. To put it to you bluntly, we can’t afford to go out and purchase a new vehicle, especially in such a short amount of time. But we know God has called us to this journey now and He will provide for us. adoption art While I know that with my head, it’s sometimes hard to keep my heart focused on that fact. I am a worrier by nature, ha! I see that we have merely TWO weeks to get everything together and have another vehicle to be able to bring our son home, our certification depends on it. So as each day goes by I begin to grow weary, questioning whether God truly called us to this journey at this place and time. That’s not how I want to be.

The other day I saw this really cool adoption idea and I wanted to bring it on as my new project. One to keep me focused on all the Lord IS doing and not how far we have to go. This canvas has been covered in diamonds; diamonds that need to be filled with color. adoption art 1 It represents all the money we need in order to purchase a new vehicle and as the money comes in we will paint in the diamonds. Each diamond is $20 and I’d love it if you’d like to join in with us to help fill these babies up! You can purchase your own (or many) and as a thank you I want to write your name on the back of our canvas as well as send you a little gift. I know it takes a village to raise a child and I want to remember everyone along the way who helped bring our sweet son home. After all is said and done this painting will be hanging on our walls for a very long time. It not only displays your kindness, but reminds me of our God’s faithfulness through this entire process. adoption 3

**At the idea of a friend, the paypal donate button has been added for you to easily “purchase your diamonds”, whether is’s one or ten!** 😉

 






 

 

Or if you’d rather just email me, here’s that info: naturallyestes@hotmail.com

I look forward to seeing this painting fill up! Please pray for our son, the adoption process, and that I would not fear the unknown but continue to step out in faith. And I look forward to the day when I can scoop him up into my arms and as tears well up in my eyes say,

“YOU ARE WORTH IT!
YOU ARE LOVED!
AND YOU ARE MINE!”


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  1. says

    Definitely keeping you all prayer that everything will work and you all will get to bring your son home with no issues in two weeks. I really admire you sharing this journey. My husband was a foster child who never got adopted and despite being adult, I know there are times when he still wonders what about him wasn’t special enough for someone adopt him. It is truly to blessing angels like your family who have seen a need and are stepping up to meet challenge!

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