My goodness, once I announced my weight…in awesomeness, and my desire to lose a little, I felt like the eyes of the world were on me. This is creepy, scary, and oh-so-great (in an accountability kind of way) all at the same time. Have y’all ever seen the tv show “Ruby”; yeah, I am SO the blog equivalent, haha! Now I feel like if I eat a piece of cake Big Brother is watching and I’m going to be in TROUBLE, ha! There is just something about making your goals public that helps you actually achieve them! And for this I am grateful.
But the reality is I’m fat overweight and there’s a reason for that. So this weight loss gig I’ve got going on right now is and will be a down right battle. I LOVE to eat…and I LOVE to eat sloppy, greasy, fatty foods! (this is really making me want some BBQ ribs right now) Truthfully I’ll eat almost anything, because I’m a convenience eater…and an emotional eater…and a bored eater. Oh yeah baby, I’m a triple threat! ha!! This is why, for the most part, I am in my current condition.
Hi, My name is Brittany and I am a high maintenance weight loss gal. (first step is admitting) 😉
After going to the gym for two weeks straight, trying to eat right, and following my trainer’s work out regime I am down:
YAY!!!Â
Let’s celebrate!
But I’ve got to keep it real with you. For the past two days I haven’t made it to the gym, I’ve eaten cake, AND my “Five minutes in Hell” (may not be the official name, ha!) look a little like this:
Paisley tried her best to work out with me!
Things ALWAYS seem to pop up when I need to work out. The kids need a drink, Penelope needs fed, Sam gets home late for work, the kids beat me up while I try to work out, church, etc.
Granted these aren’t bad, but I told you, I’m a high maintenance weight loss kind of gal. So if there is anything that hinders or messes up my plan…I’m over it. Because right now working out sucks.
It does.
It just plain sucks. If you were to watch me work out (and oh my word, please don’t, ha!), I look like a hot jiggly mess! Seriously, if you get too close while I’m working out you may be hit by a fat roll. But I keep telling myself it’s all for the better. Every time I run, I can’t look at the fact I need to run until I burn 400 calories (which for an out of shape lady is hard!). I run until I hit 200, and then I want to quit, so I pep talk myself into running until I burn 250 calories. When I reach 250, I want to quit, so I pep talk myself into 300 calories. And the cycle continues all the way until 400. ha!Â
But when I do burn all I need to or complete a work out like I should, IÂ limp walk out of the gym with my head held high. Because for that moment I am no longer the 211 pound hot mess. Instead I’m the girl who making a change in her life, and she quite frankly is unstoppable.
So my encouragement to you (and me!) is to not give up…it’s okay to admit your a high maintenance weight loss gal (or guy), but don’t let that be your only title. Let’s keep deciding to make a change…because the one thing propelling me to continue? The fact that I’m going to be weighing in and photographing myself next week! I’ve so got to redeem myself some from the atrocity you gazed upon last week! ha!
You’re so brave for putting it all out there. I’ve just started working out too, so it’ll be fun to track your progress.
Way to go, lady! You’ve got this!
I remember when I first started running – it was not pretty. I would run as far as I could (not far) and then walk a bit, then run, then walk, etc. until I had done my distance for the day. It was not pretty and I looked like and idiot most of the time, but who was laughing when I ran 7 miles for the first time? Me.